My life today

OK, so I can't hold it in any longer!!!

Yes, that's right, Caitlyn is going to be a big sister!! In January of 2011.

WOOO-HOOO!

We were very excited to find this out! I just woke up one morning, and took a test. I didn't feel pregnant at all, just a few days late. I was actually pretty shocked it was positive! I took a few more tests just to be sure. I wasn't sure how to tell my hubby...I knew he'd be soooo excited! So, I just told him to come with me to the bathroom for a minute to look at something. He grabbed a shoe and followed me there, he said he was expecting to have to kill a spider! I showed him the test and he didn't know what to think! We had to let it sink in for a while. And had to buy a couple more tests just to be sure! :) Yes, they were all positive.

We told Caitlyn a few days later and then announced it to close friends, family.

Here is a cute video of when we told her! Turn up your volume!

So, since our announcement, we have had a few problems. A week ago Thursday I started bleeding. I went to the ER and they did an ultrasound. The baby had a heartbeat! It looked great! They found a "subchorionic hemorrhage" that was causing the bleeding. They said it was small and hopefully would go away on it's own. I just had to decrease my activity. I was off work for 5 days. I went back to work Wednesday as scheduled. I had no problems at work. However, that night after work, at 3:30 am, I started bleeding heavily. I wasn't sure what to do at that point. We went to the ER again. I was bleeding so badly by this time I almost passed out while I was sitting on the gurney. Gave me some IV fluids and pain medication because I was hurting SO BAD! The ER doctor did an ultrasound in the room. Praise the Lord, the baby looked great still, heartbeat at 146! As I was lying down, the bleeding slowed. They sent me home. But, as soon as I got home, the bleeding was worse than ever. We had to drive right back to the ER. They couldn't believe how much blood they were seeing! I was sent to ultrasound. Again, praise the Lord, the baby looked great! Hearbeat 160. However, the bleed from a week ago had increased to very large in size. I thought I was going to die from blood loss, it was so bad. It was just a pure miracle the baby was still alive through all of this. I was admitted into the hospital at that time. My hemoglobin and hematocrit continued to drop but never reached critical levels. I received Motrin and IV fluids and strict bedrest. I was able to go home Friday as the bleeding had slowed. So....here I am now. On bedrest till June 8th at least. Then my doctor will reevaluate the bleeding area and decide if I can go back to work and get off this bedrest! Never in my life would I have thought this would be happening. They tell me there's a 50/50 chance of miscarriage at this point. I can't believe the baby has made it this far with all of the bleeding I've had. I will go back to the doctor on Tuesday to evaluate everything and see if the baby is doing ok. Really, at this point, I'm prepared for anything. I pray for the health and safety of my little baby as well as myself. I am again amazed by my husband, he never leaves my side and he comforts me and helps me in any way possible. I know he feels so helpless seeing these things happen. He is so strong and just so amazing. I pray for him to have continued strength and peace. Here are the ultrasound pics:

The round black area in the middle is the yolk sac and the baby is sitting at the very bottom. You can barely tell! But we could see it's little heart just beating away! God, please bless this precious little thing growing inside of me! What a miracle!

Through all of this, the Lord is my strength. Without Him, I would be a mess. He is the creator of all things. The knower of everything! He knows the plans for me and this baby.

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

2 Thessalonians 3:16 May the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.

Psalm 118:14 The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.